Sunday, 31 July 2022

Trussed Us

Trussed Us

 

Oh, of course, absolutely - the latest exit polls? He trussed

runner beans to them, clearly, watch green shoots grow,

set them racing back to pack in Gdansk or Moscow,

somewhere like that, who cares, he’s hardly to know

when forking sods laws to level up her aspiration nation,

 

fuck them asking, frankly; she snaps his neck and neck

while truss turgid tea leaves for sewage and drek,

get properly stuck in, get briefed, get digital subscription,

get that one good leg to the clinic for prescription

and take multi meds; shuffling those fat arses off to bed,

 

truss whatever he tells them to truss, read ‘em and weep,

shit in soiled beds, foul in dumb dreams, seen in his sleep,

trussed the old, the silent; those fucking bleating sheep

who truss elders, truss betters, truss seen not heard,

mime to her later and trussed him not hear a fucking word,

 

go trussed a tame lioness, listen to that Wolly Murs,

play safe with tumbles while she’s polishing your turds

laser-focussed on some turbo charged Love Beach porking

or those shambled grizzled ghouls of Albert Street talking

and rocking their horseflies while he’s walking the walking,

 

no future in England’s dreaming of a potential H bomb,

while she’s trussing mandates to those who’ll vote wrong,

where his mansplaining is elevated to a fucking art form,

well hosed, well honed, a shitstick with wit sharpened tip,

ramp wags up to eleven and trussed his mouthfuls of shit,

 

oh, of course, absolutely - inflation and economy? She trussed

to austerity, trussed him to keep us poor, underfed, sick, cold,

cancel culture for bastard degrees that can never be sold

he’s tossed off from the back of a lorry, you’re sorry for haste

then fuck me repent but, oh: the waste, the waste, the waste,

 

the waste.


Friday, 29 July 2022

Coming Second

 Coming Second

 

Look, theirs is really no disgrace, my dear,

most of them are just bringing up the rear

and no second thoughts of eating seconds.

 

Coming second, with no second coming,

believe in second best; I’ll settle for less.

Do you trust, like I don’t, in a last trump?

If so, there’s plenty room left in the rump

of stragglers, horrid hagglers, kidnappers,

carpet baggers, and the sagging, sagging,

 

sinking in; up ahead a finish line’s flagging,

quicksand’s got us by throats and dragging,

It might flash across our minds in lashes,

three dot three dash love, where trash is

frying up fish and chips, cheap Brits abroad,

look for lives of daub, wattle, plasterboard,

and only in it for the car crashes. Look out,

 

it’s the taking part, that’s all that counts,

making up the numbers as you go along,

an album of fillers and just one good song

frontloaded, there is no wheat without chaff

and tears shed are only tears for coming last

but they’re signing dotted lines with a laugh,

a meeting of mines that hardly explode,

 

sink without trace, that look on your face

says it all, you won’t ever hear love’s call

and I’m swimming against the tide. Pride,

wrong if we fear what we know is real inside,

seconds tick quick, and those seconds sicken,

while gravity gluing us down only thickens

tugs at flesh, and the pacemakers quicken.

 

I’ll take it back and not dunroamin; itllnotdo,

that meeting of minds between me and you:

what seized us first was lost in coming second.



Thursday, 28 July 2022

Distance

Distance

 

So, after tea, summer’s chill descends,

there’s him and me and time to burn

and in our joy, old man and boy:

look, he’s only touching ten after all,

tear off down the park to kick football.

Listen, you’d hear our elated footfall

there, he’s up and running down the path,

brushes skittering dandelion clocks,

whipping his hand off nettles in shock,

then holds up witness with hangdog laugh,

at least an hour before bedtime, bath,

so let’s not waste it, Grandad,

the dusk is falling across Cornish hills.

I’m dribbling behind him, just about

keeping up with keepie-uppies,

bold spin doctoring my aching soles

trapping the ball as he shoots for goal,

saving some of them, but most go in,

he's judging our distance well.

And as shadows kiss tree tops, I glance,

feel three girls’ gaze, sitting just askance

and flopped idly across the see-saw,

in flaming orange silhouette by chance

of the sun, watching them watching him,

voices not loud, but loud enough,

speak sugar and lover and witches and stuff.

He feels it; the next shot misses by a mile;

picks the ball up with embarrassed smile,

then withdraws in our shared silence.

As we head home, he’s roughing his chin,

tosses ball at me with a distant grin.




Wednesday, 27 July 2022

And Not a False Turned True

And Not a False Turned True.

 

 

The wind stirred leaves that made susurrations across the lake: ‘Look, Lord, what fools these mortals be.’

Obscured by clouds, the sun had threatened, but remained buttoned up behind grey drapes. The dense forest that curtained the lake added to the surly demeanour of this late June day. And, despite its advanced hours, the night had never really left the stage; the moon’s pale saucer glittering above the trees’ proscenium arches.

Cascade Way.

A track that stair-cased down the valley to the lake. It was hard on old knees if took at a gallop, but otherwise a harmless descent and, in any case, some thoughtful landscaper had carved, like steppes, a pathway the wound to and fro at a gentle incline for bicycles to tackle or pedestrians out for a jog or gentle stroll. It was not parallel or circuitous, but it was alternative.

Cascade Way.

Offering a shortcut; a substitute to the clanking land train that toured the park every 30 minutes, carrying those who fancied cycling or walking even less; calling at makeshift huts with ideas above their stations; names like ‘Pine Halt’ and ‘Shearwater’.

Cascade Way.

Above, two figures were clambering down from the top. From a distance, one was wearing a grey curly haired moptop, proceeding with a very slight grumbling stumble on some of the sharper steps; if he caught them the wrong way he made an audible grunt.

The other, much more nimble, was whooping his way throughout. Sometimes two to three steps at a leap, sometimes gliding along an arc of the pathway at speed, sometimes neither, just a jump from boulder to boulder alongside the dry streambed.

Always he is looking over his shoulder to see how far ahead he was, always pausing to allow the old fellow to catch him until, with a scream, he was off again like a hare, sending the rabbits all before him. “Come on, Grandad!”

 

Below, oblivious to these rambling companions, two cyclists were negotiating the alternative, tacking along the metalled path until the tight bend, and then tacking back; forwards and backwards like threading needles in a sampler, unmindful of whether they were leaving any patterns of significance.

Nearly everyone leaves footprints, however, and they were being watched.

Not just by the bolting, fragile deer, those pairs of wood pigeons possessed of clattering tin pans for wings as they took flight, or the rabbits, scuttling for any hidden holes that buried them from sight – no - something else, which appeared to almost unmold itself from foliage.

The first cyclist was some way ahead of her partner; cowled in a wind-cheater, her chest blazoned with some cheap product placement beloved of outdoor thespians. Navigating the downwards incline was gentle; she had selected an appropriate gear and glided effortlessly towards the next switchback which was sharp angled, but could be easily taken.

The second was having it none too easy.

It was not raining, but the weather made it feel like it could be - there was moisture which lent his dark, curly mop the appearance of a sponge, as well as those eyebrows scowled into one. He was youthful. Was that his mother ahead? Surely not, maybe ten years between them, and ten metres between the bikes and ten links of the chain had fallen from his.

Slippery paths and slippery gears.

Nearly everyone slips streams and gears at some point. Worlds wheel at different speeds. Larger cogs drive the smaller ones; they thread and thread and they were being watched.

Instead of taking the hairpin, the woman braked, dismounted and with a fluid kick, engaged the supporting strut of her bicycle. She then marched back up the path. Exasperation scripted all over the lines of her face, she gazed at her companion – husband, lover, brother, son?

For his part, he glowered. Easy enough, given that his brow had a permanent mark from overused forehead muscles. “The chain’s come off. Again. It’s useless. I’ve hired a duff bike.”

“No, you haven’t. There’s nothing wrong with the bike. It’s you. You’re not using the gears properly. Because of that, the chain comes off.” She looked as though she’d made this explanation many times; her voice fizzed and had a twist of bitter lemon to it.

He gazed up at her larger frame; the coat she was wearing didn’t disguise hips that were running to fat and an oversized chest. The saddle had bit into her cheeks and left a cleft there; she was flushed and panting.

The boy seemed pleased to notice it, but any pleasure was short lived. “You’re a useless piece of shit,” snapped the woman, “and all you’ve done, this holiday, is moan and whine. I don’t know why we bothered to book it.”

“Fuck you, and fuck the bike,” snapped the boy. And then he did an extraordinary thing. He hurled the bike to the ground and stalked back up the track the way they had come. Without looking back, not once.

And the woman said nothing in reply. Left with two bikes, ten metres apart, she looked after his retreating back, then towards where her own machine was propped up.

Because, well, they were still being watched.


 

Now, the tracks were bounded on either side by a wooden fence, hewn into shape from the plentiful pine trees. And the watcher was sitting on top of part of this fence gyrating her legs and grinning puckishly.

She swung her legs in such a way that they made slight circles, one, then the other and neither foot ever caught itself. It was quite pretty, the way she moved, and it was this that caught his eye as he sloughed up the path.

So he stopped. In truth, he hadn’t been marching quite as fast as he could, unwilling perhaps, to go as far as he could in this current direction. The gravity still clutching him close, he supposed. Like a piece of elastic that might either snap or pull itself back into the shape it had sprung from.

Similarly, the girl stopped her swinging and looked at him from her vantage point. “All right?”

He’d noticed she was pretty, but the age was difficult to finger; those eyes…drawn by a clumsy child with black wax crayons and dressed in some sort of forest green tunic and slacks. Like Robin Hood.

Well, how should he reply? He was still somewhat in a temper, nursing his wrath, not willing to let go of it. Like a sulky boy, sitting on terrace steps, having watched his team defeated.

“You OK?”

Still, no matter how old you are physically, you remain trapped by the emotional pinch points of the past – and his? Well, difficult to say, but he wasn’t that old, anyway. “What’s it to you?”

Then regretted it. He might have said many things, and he chose to say that. He was, at any rate, old enough to recognise a mistake. Some aren’t. He glanced back down the path at the two bikes and his distant figure torn between her two actions, in a similar fix to his.

Anyway, the girl laughed, lighter to the touch. “Nothing, I suppose,” she admitted, “I saw what happened down there. It made me laugh. Probably, I shouldn’t.”

“Shouldn’t what?”

“Laugh.”

“Well, I’m not very good on bikes, am I?”

“I don’t know.” The girl jumped down. “What’s your name?”

“Where d’you get that costume? You look like Robin Hood.”

“It’s waterproof. They sell them up the plaza by the swimming pool. Next to the gift shop. For rainy days. Is that where you’re headed?”

“Raffan. What’s yours?”

“Good name, like that.” She grinned, and those eyes, they glittered. “Robin.” But, she put her finger to his lips, with quite an assertion, so that it pressed, “Not Robin Hood.” She smirked. “Quite a decision,” her voice continued, “you should go back.”

Raffan said nothing for two or three seconds, having that finger pressed to his lips, feeling like he should suck, bite, something. In the end, he pushed it away but not too firmly – somewhere in between gentle and resolute. Just enough to suggest he might, might be enjoying this flirtation, and that there was a sort of danger. But just what sort? “Go back where?”

Robin pointed down the track. “Two roads diverged in yellow woods,” she announced.

“Robert Frost.”

“Yeah.”

“I love Robert Frost.”

“Who doesn’t?”

“Well, she doesn’t.”

“Ah. I see your problem.”

“She likes to travel,” confessed Raffan, “when we’re older, we’re to get a camper van and drive around and stuff.”

“How much older?”

“I’m not really sure.”

Robin shrugged. “Fancy a drink, then?”

“Why?”

She glittered. “You kind of caught my eye. You know.”

“Where?”

“We can walk across the lake to the sports complex. They’ll be doing lunch.”

“Across the lake?”

“Sure.”

“What about her?” Raffan looked down the hill. She seemed a little further away than previously, but it was probably a trick of the darkness descending and dribbling into the foliage. The mizzle was making him shiver and moisture was dripping from his nose again.

“Oh, she’ll be there when we get back, I’m quite sure.”

“Really? How can you know?”

“Wheels within wheels.”

“Bicycle wheels?”

“Sure.”

“It’s not possible. To walk across the lake.”

“It is in winter,” Robin chuckled, glittering once again.

“Yeah, well it’s not winter, is it?”

“Are you sure?”

 

 

The bar which Robin had proposed was one of those which had television showing sport.

Tables were arranged like a school canteen, rather than a restaurant, no concessions made to aesthetics, just pack them in and serve chicken in a basket. One end of the hall was dominated by a large blackboard and they’d used coloured chalk to slap up the food on offer – today’s special was chicken supreme and boiled rice, but soup of the day was also available as well as anything that came with chips.

The place smelt of beer, cigarettes, mashed potato, drying people, wet dogs.

It was noisy, too. There were areas cordoned off for cheap pleasures, such as shooting pool and machines that shoved copper coins to and fro. On the whole, it was a cheap and cheerful din, families talking animatedly, fathers smoking Capstan or Player’s Number 6, supping cheap lager or bitter.

Robin came back from the bar with beer and a glass of lemonade with lime cordial, passing this to Raffan. She threw a handful of loose change on the table, took a heavy tug at her glass, sat down and lit a cigarette that she’d fished from her pocket.

Taking a couple of drags, Raffan noticed she was carelessly flicking ash on the floor and he shoved the ashtray across.

“Want one?” she asked, pushing open the packet and offering.

“No, I don’t smoke. Never tried it.”

“Bloody hell. It’s time you started, Raffan. How’s your lemonade?”

“Not bad.”

With her right hand, Robin took up a soggy beer mat with a wry grin and mimed writing upon it with the left. “Don’t smoke, don’t drink, what do you do?”

“It’s haram. Drinking.” Raffan felt like he should launch into a long explanation, then shrugged and stopped himself. It was his story, and he’d repeated it many times since decamping for the UK to study. And you could never tell what sort of reaction it would elicit. Sometimes hostility, sometimes racism and sometimes that good natured exhortation to try, because one won’t hurt, will it?

So he shrugged, sipped the lemonade, looked at Robin, let his mind wander.

Outside the rain was properly streaming down now. Queues were forming at the doors, queues of wet campers, steaming slightly as they pushed their way under cover.

A line formed at the three partitioned telephone kiosks, coppers being pushed in slots and he could hear snatches: “Yeah, hacking down... cats and dogs…holed up in the bar till it stops…”

That sort of thing. And a large hairy geezer now barged to their table. “’Scuse me mate. Got any spare change? Need to phone the lodge, to tell the missus where I am.”

“Try the bar,” suggested Robin, “I bet they’ve got plenty of loose change.”

“There’s a queue. You’ve got some there.” The man pointed at the table, for a minute looking as though he might snatch it.

“Go queue like everyone else.”

“I ain’t got time to wait at the bar. Who are you, anyway? Robin Hood?”

“No. I never give to the poor,” grinned Robin. Taking the coins deliberately, she stood up, walked across to a charity box, one of those that was a statue of a blind boy with a dog. He stood miserably in the corner as she put coppers into his slot, one at a time, relishing the sound of metal on empty plaster, never taking her gaze off the man, sticking him with her steely knife.

“Oh, very amusing, very funny. What you laughing at, Abdul?” the man growled, in the low level register of a pit-bull.

Raffan was grinning like a ruffian; could scarcely contain his applause, but then bristled. Before he could respond, however, Robin was back.

“Like I said,” she repeated, “you’ll find plenty of chances to change at the bar.”

The man jabbed twice with a forefinger. Once at Robin, then at Raffan. “I’ll be back.” He stalked off, firstly in the direction of the bar, then he stopped, reversed, and lumbered towards a table where two other men had recently sat down. Raffan watched him lean over them, saw his lips move and his arms gesture back towards their table.

Robin swallowed what was left of her beer. “Let’s go.”

Still smarting from the man’s slur, Raffan sat where he was. “Why?”

She pulled him up with surprising strength, given her diminutive frame. “Do you want it to be that kind of story? Let’s go.”

“What do you mean?”

“It’s a choice. Choose.”

“I don’t understand.” Raffan swayed between staying and facing it or beating a retreat. Three men were now threading their way back towards them. None of them looked friendly. “We did nothing wrong. That man…”

“I’ll explain outside. They’re bringing down the curtain. Let’s beat it.”

 

 

The rain had eased a bit, but the light winds whipped the dregs into a clinging froth. Raffan followed Robin’s green smock as it darted ahead of him, past the archery centre, then the high wire forest walk until finally they were adjacent to the lake. A makeshift jetty jutted into the water, alongside which were tied small pleasure craft – rowing boats, catamaran hulled vehicles that were paddled by pushing feet on pedals, long necked fake plastercast swans.

“I doubt we’ll be followed here,” grinned Robin, unhitching a swan, leaping aboard and beckoning Raffan.

He looked unsure. “Don’t we have to pay?”

Ignoring him, Robin pulled him aboard and pushed off with her foot. Once seated, some gentle paddling with feet was all it took to get the swan moving. She indicated the island at the centre of the lake, but Raffan was unused to the way the pedals operated and for a couple of minutes, the swan wheeled in an anti-clockwise motion.

“She was right,” grunted Robin, but showing him the way. And soon the swan was making sedate progress. Robin grinned, put her arm around him. “It’s all about rhythms,” she winked.

Unable to contain himself, Raffan began to laugh.

“What’s the joke?”

“He called it a lodge,” snorted Raffan, “a lodge. Those run down, wooden huts we’re given to stay in. What next?”

“There’ll be a lot of that coming. Soon your chicken in a basket will be ‘seasoned with our chef’s secret herbs and spices and smothered in lashings of rich gravy’.

“What bollocks.”

“Most people swallow it anyway.”

By now, they’d reached the small island. Robin leapt ashore, hitched the swan loosely to an overhanging tree and beckoned.

Raffan was not so lucky, misjudged the distance and found himself knee deep in extremely cold, muddy water. Having sensitive skin, he yowled in shock, floundered some more and fell forward. “Oh shit, I didn’t see that coming,”

“Full fathom five, your future lies,” tittered Robin, helping him across the threshold, where he sat bedraggled on the bank and dripping. “Those blokes will not be following us here. Nice and private, this is.”

“Inshallah.”

“Never. They’re lazy. Most people are, I find, unless they’re in a fiction and pushed into agency. It’s not real life. In real life, they’ve given up, had beer and are making threats about revenge…but it’ll all be forgotten by tea time.”

“You love stories, don’t you?”

“Of course, I’m a writer.” She looked him up and down with either an impatient or salacious gaze. “Come on, I’ve got plans for you.”

“Where are we going now?” whined Raffan, pulling himself up, towering over her.

“To the interior. The heart of darkness.”

He raised a sceptical eyebrow, for, after all, The island was about the size and shape of a small back garden. It was scarcely Coral Island, he thought.

Scoffing, Raffan gave vent. “It’s scarcely Coral Island, is it?” he sneered, giving voice to his inner monologue.

“A girl could quickly go off you,” replied Robin, leading the way. “Keep a look out for cannibals, Ralph.”

As he wondered if he was following one, they hugged the shoreline, negotiating thick brambles and those rhododendrons that seem to grow everywhere; each thick leaf wet with rain and capable of meting out a firm slap to the face if treated without respect.

After ten minutes of punishment, Raffan was unsurprised to find that they were back at the swan.

“Damn,” snapped Robin, “we must’ve missed the path.”

“Missed the path?” Raffan retorted, a voice dripping in water and sarcasm across the foliage, “maybe it’s this thick mist.”

However, Robin was irrepressible and ignored the cheap joke. She parted reeds like curtains, and from the other side, her eyes must have looked bright, coal coloured diamonds. “Yes, here. Follow me and watch your step.”

“Treacherous, is it? We’ll be needed machetes and something to defend ourselves?”

“It’s not that sort of story either.”

Observed from the distance of the shore side jetty, the island was nothing more than a green mound; doubtful if any holidaymaker thought it worthy of a visit. From a distance, the shoreline was just a clump of overgrown greenery and you couldn’t really call the terrain much of a hill. It was a marker buoy for pleasure craft, rowing boats, canoes to circle, before setting back for home.

All the more surprising, then, that the path Robin and Raffan were following descended rather than rose. As it did so, the gorse, rhododendron and brambles pressed in upon the two figures, become dense in pact as though determined to prevent passage. ‘Go back,’ shrieked the call of wild birds, ‘go back, go back, go back.’

“Stop,” complained Raffan. “I need a breather. This is ridiculous…all this.” And he flapped his arms.

“Yes, it is odd, isn’t it? Not what you were expecting?”

“Certainly not what I was hoping for.”

“You’re a married man,” grinned Robin. “What would you take me for?”

“How do you know that? What do you know? Wait…”

But Robin was darting ahead and deeper, forever leading Raffan onwards, navigating an impossible trek into the heart. “We must be below lake level now,” she called back, “Ah yes, here we are. We’ve arrived.” And she motioned him forward, tearing down some overgrown green fronded ferns.

Raffan looked. His eyes widened. “I don’t believe it. A tunnel as well? What is all this? What have you got me into?”

Hands on her hips, lips tilted towards him in a charm of seduction, Robin smiled darkly. “Well. Would you believe a midsummer’s daydream?” she asked, and the allure, the temptation, the potion was just too, too strong.

Raffan entered her tunnel.

 

 

Later, holding her in his arms beneath the forest green tunic that was serving them as a cover and listening to her quiet sleeping noises, Raffan was leaning back in the darkness, thinking, exploring the boundaries of sleep and wakefulness, drifting in and out of both like the swelling tide, noting the way time jumped forwards, backwards, became fluid.

Dreams so vivid, he could grasp them with his hands and feel them slip between his fingers, places where he could conjure thought into solidity until, like ice, they melted.

In truth, the walk through the tunnel was short, and it opened out into a dark, spherical cave where the only exit was the one he had just willingly entered. Raffan, although he could not express the idea in words, felt agency. He knew he could summon the lion and it would lie with the lamb.

Robin was in his dreams and she spoke. “I can feel your mind in mine.”

“All of this. It’s impossible.”

“Maybe you’re dreaming.”

“Yes, that must be it. I’m dreaming that I’m awake, dreaming. How far back do today’s dreams stretch? How can we know? Are you doing this? Or is it me?”

“I’m a writer, so are you.”

“And this? This is where you live?”

“What do you think?” Robin laughed, “Maybe I live in London and I come here for a break. It’s entirely possible that I discovered this place one weekend last year when I was being chased by pirates. I holed up here until they gave up chasing me. I don’t think many people know about it, they might do, I suppose. I choose to imagine they don’t. So they don’t. You’d think, if they knew, the pirates would’ve concealed their treasure down here.”

“Treasure?”

“Of course. All pirates bury treasure,” Robin mouthed, into his ear, “and this is exactly where we would find it.”

“We’d be rich. We could escape. Run away together and…travel…”

Robin placed her forefinger on his lips, pressing nakedness against him. “Travel? Is that all you can imagine? Go from this place to another and another? To see, touch, talk? Climb some hills, swim some rivers? The pictures you would take? Slide shows and projectors and a yawning homespun audience? There are better tales to tell, lover.  No footprints you could make there will settle to stir the dust of other lives. Escape is not to travel, Raffan, because it gives birth to destination, places - grounded and paved and concrete, from which ultimately you must travel again.”

Raffan’s body twisted in shock and he pushed Robin’s finger away. “In the corner,” he hissed. “The ground. It’s disturbed. They buried it there.”

“In that case, we’re rich but only if we can get it past them. It’s perfect. Not even Captain Cutlass would think to attack a gigantic fibreglass swan. But it will require cunning to write our way out of this. He’s the very devil, you know.”

Raffan paused to take stock. “I’m not a writer. I work for the council. My wife works in the same office I do. That’s how we met.”

“Love at first sight over the filing cabinets? Come back to London. I’ll introduce you to my publisher.”

“I’m dreaming this,” whispered Raffan, “I’m dreaming this, and you’re still asleep.”

“You might be. You are a story within a story. Two paths diverged in yellow woods and Captain Cutlass took the one less travelled by.”

“And that has made all the difference.”

“You are travelling within my story, Raffan, and I don’t believe in travel.”

“My wife likes to travel. Got her heart set on that camper van. There’ll be bikes too, Lashed to the back. Wants to see the world when she retires.”

“And you?”

“I’m no good with bikes,” muttered Raffan, and a cloud crossed his face, building into a tower as he admitted it to himself, saw it all.

“Go back to the desert. Tell your stories there, writer. Tell stories of the hawks, the caravans and the scimitar. Wield the dhu al-faqar once again. Dive for pearls.”

“No, I must go back, Robin. I’m no writer. I should make the best of it, shouldn’t I? That’s what we do. That’s what all of us do. And when it’s over, we say we want to travel. Wake me up.”

“Oberon will chastise me.”

“Lucky you.”

Robin shook her head, pulling him back towards the floor of her cave and away from the tunnel that led towards the entrance. “No. You are not ready, my Raffan. Not ready for Captain Cutlass and his rampaging swarm of bandoleros. Stay. Just a while longer.”

Raffan shook his head, but he could feel the warmth of her body, her soft skin, the scents of her love dancing upon his tongue.

“At least let’s dig for that treasure?”

“No. It's my plot. You're asleep within me. Wake up.” Seizing her hand, and tossing her tunic across, he pulled Robin firmly towards the entrance, through the tunnel, past the curtain of fronds and together they ascended the overgrown track.

This time, however, the foliage did not hinder them, no brambles whipped their heels, no blackthorn pierced their skin; it was a much shorter passage than Raffan had thought, and they slid rapidly through. He hurried, holding her hand in his, negotiating the pathway with nimble feet. Before too long, they stood on the shore, by the swan.

But the sight that met his eyes caused Raffan to stand stock still. “I don’t believe it.”

Robin grinned, winked, then roared with laughter.

Across the lake from the island, a galleon was making ready to set sail. Canvas was being hoisted and diminutive figures scuttled about the quarterdeck and fo’c’sle. Net ladders, like spider webs, adorned the main masts, ants ascending, descending, hoisting, lowering. Capstans, powered by wooden crossbeams, were being pushed by gaudy costumed crewmembers and in the crow’s nest, the glint of the spy glass and a triumphant shout. “Thar, Cap’n. Yonder she lies.”

“Make ready, my brave bullies,” screamed a bearded, one-legged figure, “for this time we have her trapped good and proper, man the battle stations, set the wheel hard a-port. I’ll shred her skin with the cat, and feed her liver to the sharks.”

Shaking his head very slightly, Raffan raised his eyebrow, then with a smile so broad it released his spirit, kissed Robin. “I’m not having this, you imp,” he grinned, “wake up.”

And, of course, once he’d brought the curtain down, she was gone.

Shivering in the greyness and wiping mizzle from his nose that was ever dripping, the boy walked the few steps back to where he’d flung his bike to the floor. It was still there, waiting to be picked up, the chain hanging limply from its gears.

He stooped, picked it up, balanced it. Then his eyes wandered the ten metres down the track.

The woman was still waiting, smouldering as though with one gentle breath’s blow, she would conflagrate into a wildfire.

 

  

Cascade Way

Above, the two figures continued their journey. The small one; blonde, tousled hair, catching raindrops on the tongue, careless as to which path he took – sometimes, the gentle track, sometime the boulders, sometimes the steps. He would stop - no freeze - such fluid movements from standing to squatting and back. Calling out any points of interest, “Look, Grandad! This stone wobbles! A wobbly stone!” And he balanced, shifting the ground beneath him with his weight and a grin.

The grey moptopped one winced as a steep set step caught his knee, twisting it slightly, due to it having been laid askance, or weathered, or both. “These bloody knees wobble,” he grumbled, sitting down. He gyrated his shoulders and shook the small rucksack he was carrying onto the floor in front of his feet.

They were about halfway down.

Ignoring the rain, Grandad fished inside and pulled out a packet of Turkish cigarettes. Unusual, because it was still adorned with the brand, as opposed to endless health warnings: ‘L and M – menthol slims’. Pulling one free, he examined it thoughtfully, used his teeth to crack a small coloured dot at the tip, lit the cigarette and inhaled. The smoke was still hissing from between his teeth as the boy arrived like a white flurry of snowstorm.

“Hurry up, Grandad.”

“Why? What’s the time, my boy?” He fished in another pocket, checked his mobile phone. “Plenty of time.” Laying the cigarette beside him, he rummaged about some more and pulled out a medium sized hard bound blue notebook and a biro, opened it, flicked through a few pages, began to scribble some notes.

Sitting beside him, the blonde lad spoke. “What are you writing? Will it take long?”

Grandad took another drag of the cigarette and ruffled the boy’s hair, turning it into a hug, as he always did. “Oh, just some notes. See?” And then he read: “Although his steps were badly askance, all twisted knees beg a second chance.”

“That’s stupid.”

“No, no, it scans. I like it. You see? Nine syllables. Four and a half feet.”

“It’s metres, not feet, Grandad. You’re so old.”

“No, it’s meter, Davy.” Grandad shook his head, stubbed out his cigarette and grinned. “Yes, you’re right. It’s stupid.”

“Smoking?”

“Smoking is always stupid, Davy,” he replied. Then, so quiet that it was under the breath of the wind, added, “nice, though.”

Davy stood up and pulled the old man to his feet. “Come on, Grandad. I’m hungry. Where’s the sport's bar?”

“Just beyond those trees, the other side of the lake.”

“Will you make it?”

“Inshallah.”

“You can take the track, if you want. I’ll wait at the bottom of the steps.”

“You cheeky sod. I’m not that old. In any case, everyone takes that track.”

Before Davy continued his leaping and hollering, however, his gaze was drawn by the most extraordinary sight. He watched halfway between aghast and delighted. He nudged Grandad in the side and pointed in innocence as all young boys do when taken by surprise. “Look, Grandad.”

“What? I can’t see anything.”

“That man just threw his bike onto the floor and swore. Very bad words, Grandad.”

Grandad screwed up his pitiful eyes and followed Davy’s finger. “There’s nothing there, Davy.”

“There is, Grandad. He’s left his bike. He’s walking towards us. That woman looks very cross, Grandad.”

Grandad could see nothing. He continued to stare in that direction for a little while after Davy had given up and took flight. There really was nothing there. He looked downwards towards where his blonde companion stood at the bottom of Cascade Way, waiting. Then shivered.

He had a feeling he was being watched.


Tuesday, 19 July 2022

This Waste of Skin

This Waste of Skin

 

 

Do I have the morning in me?

I have not. Let it be late afternoon,

or early evening, even night,

for what was imprinted by the leaving

and who is left that is grieving?

Hung like a stone from her neck,

less of the donkey, more of the ass,

a dragnet, a clinging, wringing thing

from the depths of primeval morass,

trawled through the scuds and scum

and landed lucky in the sun.

More like one of those clamps,

an electronic tag you bade her wear,

near tailor made, a badly fitting glove,

to trail, to suspect, to call it love.

Yes, the parties you were uninvited to

yet followed her in, a waste of skin,

just a fetid gust of wind in her wake,

behind their shadows of slipping smiles,

blagging free drinks and always the spy

you might slipper her later by and by

and she will write to life’s publishers,

sending her regrets and her apologies,

for that expanded rote of excuses

are not all yet compiled for anthologies.

This flower has been a long time plucked

is shredded petals in coffee shops,

all anxious glances over shoulders,

stirring the spoon and growing older,

laying waste to all good life,

you’ll slash the pistil with your knife.

Do I have the morning in me?

Search the dawn, search the skies,

all that you left behind is chained to night,

her dragged soul sure it is somehow right

to visit and visit and never halt,

while any skull worth its salt

is unconcerned with blame or fault,

lying bare faced forever grins

and contemplates this waste of skin.



Friday, 15 July 2022

Treasure (Part 2)

 Treasure (Part 2)

 

 

It’s true, I know that blood will out.

No maze exists that I can conjure;

imprint upon those minds that hunger

to disinter that casket. Well, so be it.

Our hearts tell tales in labyrinths,

sooty jewels that refuse to scrub up

and press and brim us to the brink,

coffered inside a chest that gleams

in seeming, must be not as it seems.

Above, the land, all plateaus bland,

below through fingers sifts the sand,

twists in funnels watched by shrieves,

will be exposed and snatched by thieves.

I’m the fool to think I could ever trust

foundations of this weak Earth’s crust;

no, she will crush to crumbs instead

and grind my bones to make her bread,

spell water porous, stirring the murky

brew bubbling at the cauldron’s bottom,

sifting tea leaves for something rotten.

And it threatens to give itself away

as I weekly lift the lid and stare,

trace hands between her treasures there,

divide and part and clutch doubloons

until I swear I must with fever swoon,

for a padlock might have many keys,

they turn the avaricious to disease,

who flatter ourselves only we can know

where each and every passage goes,

then gasp that day the whistle blows.

Oh, and then the edifice crashes down,

Dominions hawk dire news cross town,

to herald bad tidings for it is found

that this is sweet affront. In mantle deep,

within Earth's core she dreams and sleeps;

treasure where most Angels fear to tread,

for deep buried it lives and is not dead,

when this is found, I will gladly shout:

your blood now sings and blood will out.



Monday, 11 July 2022

Treasure (Part 1)

Treasure (Part 1)

 

Some truth lies buried, lost and found

crust plunged several inches and some feet,

with sufficient sham mapped trap streets

and false scents to throw your hounds.

 

His heart in pact is a risk clenched fist

that wants it all and pinches flesh and twists

and its pleasure is only to give him pleasure

in opening chests of hush-hush treasure,

 

masked, they say, with gay abandon,

dissimulation of plain sight, smoky clarity,

through two way mirrors, placed at random

to obscure detection with slight dexterity.

 

And he left it there without much remorse,

where, if any had sense, could easily source

secrets, but for now it bides safe and sound,

deep in soft sweet casket, small and round.

 

On Fridays, the faithful go to the mosque

while he opens the strongbox and is lost

once more, slipping the yielding clasps

between sweaty finger and thumb, grasps

 

that which runs golden like melting butter

unchaining, palming links into spiralling pools,

see his beating avaricious heart’s all aflutter

whilst forbidden lustres these darkest jewels.

 

Oh, but never think he sleeps easy at nights,

knowing all to be lost and he cannot take flight

within dreams fighting dreams, to uncover

a day this plundered treasure is discovered.



Friday, 8 July 2022

Well, it’s My Birthday Too, Yeah

 Well, it’s My Birthday Too, Yeah

 

You say it’s your birthday?

Well, let me propose to you,

with second sight, crystal strong

looks - you’ll see two oak sealed

barrels of demi-sec champagne

launched loud and rising high

into two pitch free-falling orbits;

arcs of burnt wandering cooper,

smelting sturdy wedding bands

enough, they to hold our aching

curved staves in place, my lover,

why not? Let’s chase each other

in opposable looping co-orbitals

tumble headlong in forward rolls

both took, over dish shaped discs

hounding love’s eternal horizons,

a sun that’d be forever setting

on untested wine, out of reach,

as we’re busy never forgetting.

Except I now must remind you,

many days have cascaded past,

since each breathed those warm

farewells and your card was lost

in the last post; bathed in wakes

of brief burning comets’ tails;

a light only enough to glimpse

through blink wish-washed eyes

some hope in a cosmos of sighs.

Here’s to us and to our surprise

dearest, if orbits collide or decay,

we may yet catch the nearest way,

and you’ll see me raise a toast,

to one that I still love the most,

I know not when, I know not where

but, it’s my birthday too, yeah.